mySECRETS

2012-01-03T22:38:00.003+08:00

You guys might think that it'll be mushy/awkward for me to post this kinda stuffs on my blog.
But peeps, i ain't gonna care anymore (:
Because this is where i can really express how i feel and how fortunate i am to have him...
In my life (:
Before i met him, my life is rather pathetic and incomplete.
I condemned guys, i condemned my destiny and my fate.
I don't take guys' feelings seriously after my ex broke up with me.
It was quite devastating and very hard for me to get over that reality.
So... that mentality i had was ' Guys, they are just a bunch of jerks. '
Until one day... I met him.
My heart is pounding once again.
I thought that i would never feel this way, but i'm wrong.
The very first guy whom i fell for... willingly.
He did not do anything to make me fall for him.
He did not sweet talk me.
He did not delibrately do stuffs to make me happy.
He just let me fall for him.
And finally... we're together blissfully, even till now (:
I just wanna tell him that...
For everything that he have done for me, for the way he care for me and the way he loves me.
I can feel it.
I am that very fortunate girl who has him (:
Despite of my flaws, he still love me for who i am.
Baby, you are that only one who made me fall for you so deeply.
You are the one and only guy who make me realised that how sweet it is to be in love with someone who loves you as much as you do.
I love you.
谢谢你对我的爱护。你让我感觉到被爱的辛福和快乐。。。

2012-01-02T00:10:00.001+08:00

Happy 1 year anniversary baby ((:
Thank you for everything that you've done for me :D
The way you dote me,
The way you care for me &
The way you made me feel your love towards me <3
And I came to realised that, you're the first guy who love me with your heart and soul regardless of my imperfections and flaws.
I love you <3
01-01-11

2011-12-31T01:08:00.001+08:00

What's your new year resolution? (:

2011-12-27T22:40:00.002+08:00

Dear Ade,
Please be strong (: You deserve someone better!
Dont cry over that JERK, because he ain't worth any of your TEARS.
Save your tears for someone who is muchmuchmuch better than him.
And yes, of course you need time to get over it...
It won't be easy but at least you ditch-ed a JERK (:
SO ENVIRONMENTAL :D
Let that bitch recycle him since she loves him so much. Right?
He is someone whom you USED before.
So, there's nothing to be upset about.
BE STRONG GIRL! CHEERIOS <3

2011-12-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas (:
Actually Christmas is just another day for me...
Boyfie is busying working ):
But at least he came to look for me last night after he ended his work ^^
I'm into korean dramas AGAIN!
JUNG LI WOO~ MY CHA CHI SOO~ <3
He is so CUTE! :3

2011-12-20T22:34:00.002+08:00

5 more days to Christmas (:
When i was young, i love Christmas... Because i used to believe that Santa exist.
Naive ain't it?
Well... I believe that all childrens have their own imaginations.
That's childhood memories (:

2011-12-13T22:44:00.003+08:00

The morning i dreaded the most... To be squeez-ed in the train together with those
TYPICAL GAN JIONG OFFICE PEEPS.
Like srsly?! If you're SO IN RUSH, WHY DON'T YOU WAKE UP EARLIER ?
%#@&%&^$#
It's so irritating you know? Especially when you wanna go up the escalator.
I was Q-ing for my turn...
And when those people who had just alight from the train,
THEY JUST EFF-ING PUSHED ME ASIDE AND CUT MY Q!
WHAT THE FCUK?
Damn pussy i tell you.
I got so irritated ttm, i pushed that fcuking LAO AUNTIE who pushed me.
AND, i got back my Q.
You know she's in her late thirties only and she behaves like one FULL TIME AUNTIE alrdy.
Nbcb la sial.
So pissed off you know.
Early in the morning squeeze in the train still nvm.
See people black faces still nvm.
KNNB.
THAT EFF-ING AUNTIE CUT MY Q I BUAY LUN!
Stupid auntie.
I know this is a cursing and swearing post.
BUT I DONT GIVE A DAMN.
If you don't like, just leave.

2011-12-12T22:27:00.002+08:00

不放弃爱过的那种感觉
珍惜着有你记忆的一切
就算是世界要倾斜
亲爱的我也绝不说离别
尽管末日威胁再强烈
有爱就不累
就算故事到了尽头我们也绝不退缩

2011-12-11T21:54:00.002+08:00

Just came back from my Aunt's BBQ session (:
I HAD ROASTED MARSHMALLOWS :D
It was awesome (Y)
Awwww... It's Monday tml again! WHY SO FAST~
Monday Monday Monday~ No one likes Monday ):
Piles of work waiting for me to complete tml...
Loads loads loads of it.
Hope this week passes fast (:
Might be staying over at Xiao Yi's house this coming Saturday (:
A stayover <3
2 more weeks to Xmas ^^ OMG... I LOVEEE CHRISTMAS!
Which means, i'll have LOTS OF PRESENTS <3
Bwahaha...
FYI, I'm currently into Jay Chou's song 世界末末日
A very catchy song (:

2011-12-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

Changed my phone to Iphone4S (:
I've no choice ): There's something wrong with my Iphone4.
The batt life. And if i were to replace a new batt, it'll be 130 bucks.
I might as well change it to a brand new phone?
The re-contract is only $102. Because Daddy have the M1 points to rebate (:
My advanced Xmas prezzie from Daddy <3
Well, i guess next week will be a busy week.
Running errand for ard three days.
Loads of stuffs waiting for me to complete. Urgh...
But, CHRISTMAS IS AROUND THE CORNER! :D
Bad thing is, Boyfie gotta work full ): Cos it's a Xmas.
Awwww ):

2011-12-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

Listening to

《那些年》

A very touching song... That makes me feel so nostalgic :')
Anw, im getting iphone 4S tml (:

2011-12-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

YAY!
Boyfie is coming to look for me after his work. SO HAPPPPPPY~
Finally i get to see him after so long :D
Teeheeeee~
Having giddy spells these days >< Due to the hot and cold weather.
Oh well...
Anw, MY BOSS IS SO GAWD DAMN WEIRD~
It's like, he knows that i'm not that Good in chinese, okay... Maybe just fair good.
He asked me to translate his ENGLISH ppt slides to CHINESE -.-
And its like... ALL ABOUT BUSINESS STRATEGY! Fml.
I was like thinking ' how the hell am gonna translate these to chinese? '
So, i google-d and downloaded the translator thingy.
And i practically translated EVERYTHING.
But, i don't know if the sentences really tally. But anw, i've warn-ed my Boss that he must be mentally prepared that there will be some mistakes.
And he told me that it's okay. Because he dont know chinese well too -.-
A blind mouse leading another.
So, i spent my WHOLE noon doing that slides.
Okay, i gtg.
TOODLES<3

2011-12-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

Weekends always ended so fast ):
It's another Monday tml...
Went to Jasmine's advanced 21st Birthday celebration (:
SHE'S ALWAYS SO PRINCESSY~ <3
Love her dress and her new hairdo! :D
Well babe, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY!
MAY YOU STAY HAPPY AND PRETTY... LAST BUT NOT LEAST, LAST LONG WITH HIM! (:
I miss my boyfie so badly ):
Haven't seen him for almost 5 days ): Ikr... so long ):
No choice uh... He have been busying working.
And ever since i started my new job, we rarely have a chance to go out for the whole day.
Normally, it's only for a few hours. But it's better than nothing right? (:
Nevermind, i supposed this will make our love grow fonder? ^^
BUT I MISS HIM SO MUCH ): ): ):
Sigh...
Anyway, let's hope that it'll be a better year ahead, 2012!
Hell yeah... i know i always say the same old thing every year.
But well, who don't wanna have a good year ahead? Like i mean... a smooth sailing year.
True?
I just want my family to stay happy,blissful and best of health (:
For my friends, a successful career awaits them and of course, BFF (Y)
For my Boyfie, a successful career, best of health and may WE stay happily ever after :D

2011-12-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

Hello Earthlings (:
I've just started working as a Personal Assistant for a week.
Well, i won't deny the fact that im not really used to it.
Because i have to run errands, book appointment for my boss and everything.
Its like, once i'm busy... I'm really busy.
But once i'm free, there's nothing for me to do. I can stone there for almost the whole day.
It's totally different from working in a service industry.
I need to learn from the scratch again. All over again.
I just hope that i'm able to excel here.
On my first day of work, i photocopi-ed 1000 sheets. Or maybe more than that.
On my second day of work, i stapled 800 sets.
On my third day of work, i run errands for my boss.
On my fourth day of work, i feel clueless and lost.
And it kept me thinking... Is this the kinda job i want?
Then i realised, most of the people don't have the ideal job they want.
People work for money and not pursu-ing the job they want.
Realistic...

2011-11-22T01:08:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to myself.
But... I ain't happy.

2011-11-16T22:07:00.001+08:00

Idk why.
But somehow I'm not looking forward to this birthday.
It seems like... I planned everything at the wrong timing.
This cannot make it, that cannot make it... I should have just make my birthday simple.
Maybe just a celebration. That's all.
Frankly, I'm really not looking forward. I'm serious.
I ain't happy, I ain't excited.
Upset. Just... Upset.

Baby's birthday (:

2011-11-15T00:12:00.001+08:00

Sups!
Had an awesome day with baby (:
It's his birtHday!
Okay, it was his birthday... FYI, 14/11
Accompanied him the whole day...
Went to bugis and baibai, then bugis junction and baby bought me a dress to wear on my birthday (: then to marina square, had swensens for teabreak(: -his sister's treat- we had appetizers and ice cream :3 my fav!
Then baby brought me to sk jewellery And bought me a pendant ^_^ my advanced birthday present <3
Bwahaha ~
Back to the topic :x
Our last stop of the day, Tampines (;
Headed to Tampines mall and had Ajisen for dinner.
We were feeling damn filling and bloated. Probably because our swensens meal haven't really digested -.- hehe
After the meal we went to Tampines one and made baby a birthday cake at Icing room (:
It was so fun!!! Its so special.
Like I diy a cake for my beloved <3
Tadaa~
Alright alright, I'll update more next time. Gonna turn in now (:
Goodnight peeps!

2011-10-04T22:44:00.002+08:00

Been months ever since i last blogged?
1,2,3 or 4? (:
Well, I've just tendered my resignation.
Had enough of the management and everything...
Although i would miss every single thing in DTE, but i need to move on.
I can't possibly cope myself in this restaurant yet gaining nothing but blames.
So... let's put that aside (:
1 more month to my precious 21st birthday!
SO HAPPY :D
As days goes by... I've learnt alot.
I learnt how to appreciate people, i learnt how to forgive and forget,
Last but not least, i learnt how to cherish my loved ones.
Thank god for this precious lesson (:
In my whole life, my life have been lingering like a lone ranger. I took everything for granted...
Im so spoilt, so childish and i behaves like as if i know everything...
Till today, then i realised what's life.
I'm a changed person now (:
Probably... I start to see things in a different perspective, a different angle.

2011-07-17T08:28:00.002+08:00

Getting engaged (:

2011-07-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

What's the definition of life?
I pondered.
Life... Is not a bed of roses.
Everyone has their own difficulties.
Everyone has their own pain.
Everyone learn and pick themselves up.
We faces problems each and everyday...
Sometimes even at the verge of giving up.
But what's there to keep us hanging ?
The future.
Someone told me... ' I felt so useless. '
I just wanna tell you that you're not.
I used to feel this way too.
I used to think that I'm good for nothing.
But come to think of it, it's so silly of me to think this way.
Everyone is unique in their own ways(:
If you're gonna tell yourself that you are useless, then you're REALLY useless.
Because you're never gonna achieve anything in your life.
You reap what you sow.
So comeon, pull yourself up and make you're life colorful Rather than saying yourself useless.
This is life, suck it up (:

2011-06-21T10:10:00.000+08:00

It's amazing that how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone.
And then later they will become a complete stranger...
You will pass by them without a word, without a single acknowledging look.
This person, who once knew you so well,
Who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you,
Seeing through you...

2011-06-18T20:41:00.002+08:00

My past doesn't really matter to me now.
Because I know at least I've put in effort once,
I've tried once and I gave up.
And the reason why I gave up is not because I can't handle it.
I gave up because I'm strong enough to let it go (:
Although I get to know some facts that I ought to know a year ago...
But it's okay now (:
I'm contented with what I have and I clearly know who I need the most (:
My current boyfriend, who loves me for who I am.

2011-06-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

Awesome...
I'm down with flu, fever and cough. Thumbs up.
MC for tml, like finally i'm able to give myself a break! Lols.
I know it's not something that i should feel happy/delighted of.
But it feels like i'm FREE FROM MY JOB FOR A DAY.
Free from those assignments, responsibilities, workloads and stuffs.
So anw, Life for me wasn't easy these days/weeks.
Things happened unexpectedly and it somehow changed my life.
Tremendous changes...
I just hope the best for my family.
We will go through hard times together and nothing will hold us down.
The happy and joyful moments awaits us.
Mummy, you will go through those hard times with us. You're not alone.
I promise you to be a good daughter and i'll be filial for all the things you've done for me.
I know i realised it abit to late... But now i shall do my part.
I will stay strong for you, for this family.
I love you mummy.

2011-05-16T00:05:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wished that i'm tough.
Strong enough to handle certain things by myself.
But sometimes... I just wish to cry out my sorrows to someone.
Cry and whine like a kid.
At least i would feel better.
But now... I'm so used to keep things in myself.
I bottled up my emotions... More and more...
I don't want anyone to worry for me.
But my stresses are piling up.
Everyday im grinding my brain juices during work.
How to solve this, how to solve that, how to bring up the sales, how to educate my staff, how to present myself, how to prove to them that im up to the post.
Im tired.
No one teaches me how... I picked it up after being lectured.
There's alot i wanna rant, i wanna scream... But i can't seemed to voice it out to anyone...

2011-05-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

Shocked to hear the news...
My condolences to your grandpa.

2011-04-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

My blog seems so dead uh?
My apologies.
Been working and working...
Here's a short entry update (:
There's this random day and boyfie bought me roses :D
So happy and so so so touched.
He was so shy when he passed me the roses... He blushed :3
This is the first relationship that I felt so pampered and loved.
Like... I'm his priority (:
This sweetness have been consistent till now..
Almost our 4th monthsary.
Time flies...
I'm lucky to have him... And I'm lucky that I've actually let go my past relationship that haunts me with bad memories.
To think that I actually condemned guys in the past was kinda foolish.
But at least I no longer do (:
I love you boyfie (:

2011-04-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

WHATZUPPP~
Been busying working lately. Bo bian. That's WORKING LIFE.
Ironic isn't it ? :/
ANW! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JENNIFER AKA MA DUA ER~
Gonna enjoy my day today with my dearest BOYFRIEND and beloved FRIENDS.
Let's enjoy like as if there's no tml (:
DRINK DRANK DRUNK~
Wah... Finally a day to drink, a day whereby we can all gather and take a break from working life.
Even if it's just half a day, it's still better off than NOTHING.
But... I miss my Jie pi, Kor pi and Min pi ):
MY PIPI CLAN ): ): ):
Do you guys miss me too ? :3
And to my dearest Boyfriend, WHEN ARE YOU GIVING ME ROSES UH? :D
Bwahaha~ I'mma sassy gf :x
BUT! I still love you :D hehe.
Alright peeps.
Gtg to bed. MORNING SHIFT TILL 3PM. YIPEEEEEE~

2011-04-08T21:32:00.005+08:00

PEEPS! Do dropby this blogspot if you have the time to (: There's new batch of clothes added for this spree. A blogshop created by me and Sylvia. Show us your support! :D http://sj-sweetparadise.blogspot.com/

2011-04-08T01:19:00.003+08:00

Had an awesome day with Boyfriend and friends (:
As usual, boyfriend had a stayover last night at my house.
Im lucky that he actually came to fetch me home last night else i'll be in the outlet alone till 1.30am.
Marketing dept sent pple down to put up the BBQ CHICKEN label in our outlet at ard 10 plus.
Best part, we're not informed.
Like a cb only.
Anw, thanks Boyfriend for accompanying me :D
Both of us head-ed out at 1 plus, met both Sylvia and Jennifer at white sands (:
Train-ed to clementi and shopp-ed at Cityvibe and clementi mall.
Sang at partyworld.
It was effing awesome though :D
HE BOUGHT PIERRE CARDIN COUPLE WALLETS !
Mine is pink and boyfriend's one its black.
Boyfriend said that this is for our advanced forth monthsary prezzie (:
Appreciate much.
i love you loads bby.
Well... I needa turn in now.
OPENING SHIFT TML~~~
Dang.

2011-03-30T00:56:00.002+08:00

Ah, finally I've decided to blog after so long.
So tired of life alrdy...
Been working and working and working.
Practically a half dead walking human.
Seemed so lifeless.
Yea yea, I know... This is a working life.
I know I should stop ranting and feel contented with my life.
I know my working journey is still long and I've not met the worst.
And people will start telling me ' who likes to work and which job is not eff up? '
I know luh. So stop telling me that man srsly.
Try working for 13 hrs a day and I see whether you will rant anot.
And people will start telling me ' who ask u to choose this job? Take it luh '
Like come on lah.
Who don't wanna get better job opportunities?
I'm staying put here because of the experience advantages only.
Stresses piling up also.
Eventually it affected my mood.
Who don't rant? Which typical Singaporean don't complaint?
If you don't, thumbs up for you then.
In short, your tolerance lvl exceeds.

2011-03-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

Been with Boyfriend for 2 days straight (:
Boyfriend fetch-ed me off work on weds. And he had a stayover at my house for 2 days :D
Enjoyed so much with my lovely boyfriend.
A feeling that i never had before...
A boyfriend who dote on me so much.
A boyfriend who pampers me like a Princess.
A boyfriend who place me as his first priority.
A boyfriend who is always expressing his love towards me (:
Baby, you complete me :D
Even though the time we spent together every week is limited.
But at least everything is sweet and smooth yet lovely.
I love you.
You're the one i wanna marry :x
BWAHAHA~

2011-03-13T01:04:00.004+08:00

It's 1.04am now.
Had a long week though.
Been working for 9 days straight and finally it's my offday tml!
Swee~
Worked till 3pm today, bought a cake for mummy :D
It's her birthday! :D
Head-ed home and changed.
Daddy drove us to my cousin's house warming party.
Was kinda bored there but at least I managed to catch up a lil with min pi, Jie pi and Kor pi ^_^
Left at ard 6.30, cabbed to costa sands for Jie hao's 21st birthday.
Met up with Sylvia and Zy and headed there.
Me and Sylvia left shortly and went over to Water Cross for drinking session.
Didn't managed to finish that jug of beer therefore Sylvia called her friends down.
Oh well~ probably we're not in mood for drinking.
Prolly, pond star is still the best for us (:
As for boyfriend, i miss him so muchy~
But we have more time for each others next week.
Which is a good thing for us :D
Gtg to bed now.
Will update more if I have the time to (:

2011-03-03T23:15:00.003+08:00

Boyfriend just went home.
Went to look for boyfriend at 9am (:
Headed to bugis for breakfast - foodcourt.
Seriously, we don't know why we chose to go bugis...
Like go there for breakfast only. Lols!
Aft that from bugis train-ed to Joo Koon :D
And yes... It's for fun cos we don't know what to do :x
Then from Joo Koon to Paya lebar cos boyfriend forgot to bring his thumbdrive.
So we've to travel back to his house and get the thumbdrive( it consist of our photos, we wanna print it out (: )
Trained to Simei and bought home 3 turtles :D
Reached home at 6.30pm, waited for daddy and went out again.
Daddy drove us to changi airport for dinner (:
It's a dinner treat from boyfriend and me.
It's for mummy's advanced birthday celebration (:
Dined at Dian Xiao Er.
The food there ain't half bad (:
Woosh.
Had a long day with boyfriend and family.
And tml... It's another working day ):

2011-02-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

I'm so deprived of sleep these days -.-
I was kinda down ysd due to some family problems, again.
But Boyfriend 'poof' in front of me :D
The moment he asked me to open my door... I was like 'HUH?!'
He ended work at 11pm and he came to look for me.
A pleasant surprise.
He said that he was worried for me and he wanna be there for me.
I open-ed my door... He was standing right in front of me.
It seemed like a dream, a mirage.
But it clearly wasnt (:
I couldn't stop smiling.
He appeared in front of me, that sight of him made my troubles vanished.
Just that split second, i felt so loved.
Boyfriend went home at ard 2am. Although he was so tired but he made the effort to travel all the way to my house just to make me happy :*)
My silly boy.
My verdict is, I wanna be with him and love him always (:

2011-02-24T23:41:00.003+08:00

Had an awesome day with Boyfriend today (:
ITS OUR OFFDAY ! :D
Boyfriend came at 9am and bought me breakfast.
Head-ed out at 12pm with Boyfriend and Mummy to White Sands.
Went to POSB to make a new account for my future use.
Brunch at Hongkong cafe.
Mummy head-ed home after that...
Initially me and Boyfriend wanna go Bugis, but we were so tired and lazy.
So we decided to go home.
Saw mummy under the blk and she was like ' I thought u guys wanna go out? '
LOL.
Went home and the both of us just KO-ed on bed.
I woke up earlier than Boyfriend so i watched Burlesque.
But i havent finished watching it.
Had dinner at home then walked to Sylvia's place for slacking session (:
PLAYED MONOPOLY DEAL ! FOR LIKE AFTER SO LONG LAH...
OWN-ED SYLVIA FOR 3 GAMES STRAIGHT! weet weet~
But i enjoyed alot :D
Zhongyi came after his dinner... and we continue-ed.
Boyfriend was watching me playing and he add-ed on ' Bby, see... I give you luck leh~ '
True enough, he did :x
Although we had a simple day, but it felt great.
Felt great to enjoy my day with Boyfriend, Friends and family in a day.
My life seems to be so perfect now and i'm contented (:
Way to go Jacqueline! :D
AND YIPEE! Jie pi and Kor pi will be coming over to my workplace for dinner tml.
Can't wait to see them :D

2011-02-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

From working colleagues to friends.
From friends to lovers.
Amazed by fate (:
Boyfriend, i'll not regret for you're my choice.
Every single thing we been thru it felt so right.
From the start you already know the fact that i condemned love.
I used to think that love was bullshits.
I used to think that guys are all the same.
I used to think that sweetness is never consistent.
I used to think that guys are fickled minded.
But boyfriend, you totally changed that mindset of mine.
You proved me wrong (:
My heart wavered.
I thought i've already forgot how to love...
But once i'm in love with you, feelings that i thought i could buried deep within me...
It just came unknowingly.
And once again... I learnt how to love from the scratch.
Now it feels like everything i've done for you is all worthwhile.
Because you deserve it (:

2011-02-22T01:49:00.004+08:00

It's 1.49am now (:
Boyfriend surprised me with his presence today :D
Fetched me off work and gave me a handicraft handphone accessories.
With our names engraved (: <3
Before he came, I was feeling pretty grumpy.
Things happened during work.
Shitty things.
But I'm lucky to have my area manager who's always giving me his support and giving me advices (;
Mr sim, I will not disappoint you (:
I would say that im fortunate to have people who cares for me.
My beloved boyfriend, friends and kins :D
I'll endure my way through and overcome those obstacles.
That's the spirit (:

2011-02-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

Ended work at 5pm today (Y)

Went down to Tamp1 to collect our couple rings

I love the couple rings we made together.

It felt so right... (:

2011-02-19T01:50:00.003+08:00

To think that I'm awake now despite the fact that I'll be working morning shift tml.
It's a bit insane.
Insane in a sense that I'm so not myself till certain extent that I actually went to browse your page.
Which is so unlikely of me.
But it's certainly not because I miss you.
It's because it just happened.
But looks like you're doing great out there which is a good thing I supposed?
Last long with your girl (:
So anyway... I can't believe that I was the only manager on shift today.
And it's like damn effing busy luh!
Dealt with customer's complaints due to some wrong orders and serving time.
I won't deny the fact that I was quite pissed with the somehow new full time staff.
But I've told them umpteen times about food waiting time!
Well... But at least my hardwork paid off.
Recognition by my operation manager (:
At least something to keep me moving uh. Ain't half bad afterall.
Miss my boyfriend ):
Guess we'll have to wait up till next thurs for our next meeting.
Boyfriend boyfriend, I miss you so muchy <3

2011-02-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! It's my offday today :D
Enjoyed my day with boyfriend cos we spent the whole day together (:
Before I start to blog about today I shall summarize abit about ysd (:
Ended work at 5 and went Tampines 1 to meet boyfriend.
Both of us made couple rings (:
Gonna collect on Sat. Thanks boyfriend :D
Headed over to town park for drinking session.
Of course its with boyfriend and the awesome slacking clan!
Sylvia, jie hao, Jennifer and her bf.
It had been so long ever since the last time we slack as a clan at town park.
But unfortunately, pond star's service was kinda sucky ysd.
Like most of the staff there machiam pak jiao one.
Check our ic somemore cos we ordered some liquors and beers.
Like hello? We're the regulars please. Lols.
Nvm, at least we enjoyed (:
So today... Went out with boyfriend and head over to Mountbatten to meet Sylvia for lunch.
Mac for lunch (: after that both me and boyfriend headed to bugis for movie and baibai thingy(:
Then went home for dinner (: boyfriend, I love you!

2011-02-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

I love my boyfriend so ultralord much !
He never fails to give me unexpected surprises (:
Like today, I thought I'll be spending my valentine working throughout the night.
But when I was at the verge of breaking down due to some cocked up situations at work...
My boyfriend appeared like 'poof' :D
Seriously... 很感动 :*)
He ended his work at 9 and he came to look for me and fetch me off work.
Boyfriend made me sushi and sashimi <3
Both are my favourites :D
Thank you for everything you've done for me.
You're the sweetest gift I've ever received (:
I love you boyfriend.

2011-02-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

I feel so happy with my boyfriend (:
The person I love is full of surprises, he keeps me on my feet, his company never bores me, he's always very sweet, he's all I want, he's all I'll ever need because he means absolutely everything to me (:
He bought me a huge bear that I didn't expected.
Although the both of us will be working on the Valentine's day but...
It's already sweet enough to be with him everyday (:
Thanks boyfriend for your everything.

2011-02-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY peeps (:
A few days ago... Boyfriend gave me a surprise :D
I was working till 10.
Boyfriend came to fetch me home...
He bought me a SK necklace for our first month ^^
Boyfriend... Although the both of us are busying working, but that never change our love.
You made the effort to make me happy, gave me surprises, be there for me when i needed you at my worst.
That's the best i ever asked for. ILOVEYOU MANY~
Okay luh, i'll blog more if im free. So tired now.
Nights peeps :D

2011-01-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Being an asst manager ain't easy.
Been working full shifts these days, lethargic ttm.
Once i reached home, i KO-ed straight.
Lay flat on my bed and dozed off soundly.
So many things to catch up especially closing.
Doing the closing sales, follow up with the DOC, DSB, COGS aren't easy at all.
Be firm with the staff whom i known for so long... It's so difficult.
But i need to know my stand.
Both my legs ach-ed so badly after standing for long hours.
I think i'll slim down if i continue to work for 11 hours straight -.-
I miss my slacking clan.
I miss the days when we're always slacking, crapping away like there's no tml.
I miss the days when we slack under the block blabbering nonsense while playing monopoly deal.
Indeed, that's a grown up life that everyone will go through.
Once you step in the working society, everything changes.
You spend less time with your friends ):
You spend less time with your kins ):
AND BOYFRIEND ): ): ):
Sigh... I need time to adapt.
Stress-ed up also.
I don't wanna disappoint my Outlet manager, my area manager not forgetting my Operation manager.
They give me this opportunity.
I should cherish it and pick things fast.
Stay positive Jacq, you can do it (:

2011-01-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

Learnt alot of stuffs during work today.
Ordering of stocks, how to control COGS, cost of labour and etc.
Operation manager came today and saw me wearing Black polo uniform.
He asked me why am i wearing black polo uniform.
Then i told him im the supervisor mah. This is the uniform for supervisor.
And then he looked surprised, he replied ' You're NOT a supervisor, you're a management trainee.'
Which means... After my probation period i'm a Asst manager.
Which means... I'll have to wear what my managers wear.
Which means... I need a tie, we're planning to wear PINK tie!
Cos including me, we're all girls :D
So anw, he had a chat with me.
He told me ' Now that you're a manager, the staff are no longer your friends, they are your subordinates. '
This sentence strikes me.
It's quite challenging for me though.
Cos i've been working there for long and suddenly... I need to give them a image.
Let them see the fear factor in me.
There's alot i've to catch up and i have to pick up fast.
Working opening alone tml, kinda nervous though :(
But well... I MUST HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ME!
Have faith in myself (:

2011-01-25T00:07:00.001+08:00

I miss the Sashimi thingy with cucumbers that Boyfriend made for me.
IT'S DAMN GOOD -drools-
Boyfriend, i want more sushi(s) next time kies?
AND YOU CAN BRIBE MY MUM WITH UR SUSHI SKILLS!
Bwahaha, win win thing !
Okay, i've got 9 hours and 30 mins more.
And and and, i'll be meeting Boyfriend on this weds for movie <3
Happy girl <3

2011-01-24T00:49:00.003+08:00

Wondering why am i blogging so frequently now ?
Because i'm starting work in 1 more day :/
Went out with Boyfriend after he end his work.
Headed to Marina Square to meet him (:
He bought a pair of slipper at Fourskin.
Train-ed to Town and walked to Far east.
Finally Boyfriend found the shoes that he wants.
Cost him 60 bucks.
Train-ed back to Pasir ris at 8.00pm.
DRINKING SESSION AT TOWN PARK<3
Sylvia came shortly followed by Ma dua Er and Zy.
A jug of double dose barcardi with sprite and some finger foods.
The peeps then left at 9 plus.
Left me and Boyfriend.
We're enjoying the breeze, chatting away...
And he was like ' Baby, are you drunk? You looked so blur. '
LOL, the fact is... I'm not drunk. IM SOBER.
Silly boyfriend, i've already said this drinking session is my treat.
When i was making the payment, he secretly placed 25 bucks in my bag.
I only realised it when i reached home.
Meeting him on this coming weds after my work.
Yay-ness.
Love my silly boyfriend, many many :D

2011-01-22T23:09:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 9.30 today.
Accompanied Sylvia for her interview at Mountbatten.
We witnessed a shooting scene there.
Initially we thought there's a riot. LOL.
Anw, she's got that job and she'll be starting on next coming weds.
As for me, my job will starts on next coming tues ):
There goes my life... Suck it up.
Head-ed to The Central after her interview.
Nicholas tagged along.
Speaking of him, I WAS SO IRRITATED BY HIM !!!
Urgh, overgrown freak... He is seriously tall. He stands at 1.85?
Or probably taller than that.
But anyway, Zy and Shu Ren came to meet us at Outram park.
Zy wanna get a 'wooden goat'
He said that the fortune teller asked him to get one to prevent some bad unforeseen luck.
We searched high and low for that particular WOODEN GOAT.
Finally we found one at Chinatown point.
Its eff-ing small and it cost 25 bucks.
Wow?
After that goat thingy... we walked around Chinatown.
ITS EFFING PACKED LAH.
Squeeze here and there... Typical singaporeans -.-
Sweat like nobody's business.
Went to Vivocity, bought a bag for 38 bucks :D
Oh well, had a long day....
Tired already ):

2011-01-20T23:14:00.003+08:00

Enjoyed my day with Boyfriend (:
Had a long day with him today... Else next week will be a packed week ahead.
Cos next week i'll be starting my work as a Floor supervisor.
Anyway, Shopping with Boyfriend at Bugis.
QQ mian for dinner, it's superb :D
Shop-ed with boyfriend at bugis street.
He certainly knows how to shop man.
Boyfriend bought 3 jeans, 5 tops.
He spent like 300 over bucks?
AI ZAI MAN.
My legs are so eff-ing tired already -.-
Gonna break like twigs.
Head-ed home at around 9.30pm.
Boyfriend sent me home <3
Aww... Might be meeting him on this coming Sunday :D
I'll miss you so badly, my silly boyfriend :x

2011-01-18T23:43:00.004+08:00

Folding hearts made me feel emo nemo.
Idk.
Bad memories :/
Maybe I should stop folding it.
Flashbacks of memories... Kept thinking and feel so nostalgic.
Maybe because i found out something that i'm not supposed to know in the past?
Seriously, i'd rather not to know anything.
In failed relationships i'm always like an idiot.
I'm always the last to know the truth after that particular breakup.
That 'sorry' you said to me, because of your guilt ?
Now then I know the exact reason of why are you feeling apologetic.
Now i know...
I don't know what should i say anymore.
I always thought that you're once a good boyfriend that i'm willing to reminisce those great memories we shared.
But now, no.
To think that i cling-ed on the pain for 10 months, making myself so miserable.
Thanks... For making me looks like an idiot and feel like an idiot.
Bu zhi de.

2011-01-17T16:17:00.001+08:00

I miss my boyfriend, my silly boy.
Eff-ing loads.

2011-01-15T22:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life, things tends to be so contradicting.
You will be so indecisive.
You don't know what to do, you take in people's advices.
But sometimes, those advices weren't the one you want.
You took those advices to reconfirm if it's same as your thinking.
Finally i realised how practical, how realistic Singapore is.
Not forgetting, how humans can be so practical/skeptical too.
My current job is offering me a Asst.Manager position.
Whereas another job in Changi Airport is offering me a Full time job for 3 mths of probation period before promoting me to a Floor Supervisor.
My decision is towards to my current job.
Why?
Because... Firstly, i've worked there for long and i know how it goes.
And... It's a sense of achievement, an acknowledgement.
All i need to learn is the manager role, the paperworks, the orderings.
And of course, i will not stay there for long...
Prolly, give me half a year to pick up the skills.
And then i will move on to the other jobs.
However, my parents wants me to work in Changi Airport.
In their perspective, i will have more prospect there compared to my current.
But i would like to stay put on my current first... It's the matter of time.
I just can't do things in my way for ONCE.
Honestly... I'm feeling so frustrated.
In other words, Only child sucks big time.
I can endure anything, I don't care how people look at me.
I just wanna follow my intuition, yeah... It sounded dumb.
But i trust my own intuition.
Im eff-ing 20, old enough to think... Old enough to pursue what i want.
You guys stopped me from going to an Art school, I didn't say anything.
Instead, I accomodated to what you guys expect WHAT THE ONLY DAUGHTER SHOULD STUDY.
My dreams, trashed.
I didn't prompt much...
But now, can i at least do what i want? Please?
What so bad about working in a Service line? I studied retail management.
Obviously i'm working in a Service industry.
Why are you guys pushing me towards Office jobs?
In the first place, why will i even go for that UOB bank interview knowing that i will not be selected and knowing that that's not the job i want.
Because, i know that you guys always want me to work in a office job.
And bank, its promising.
At the end of the day... for my second interview, that interviewer told me that I DON'T HOLD A 'O' LVL CERT OR A OFFICE CERT.
And guess what? Thats the minimum requirement.
She added on ' And, you holds a Retail dip, it's not relevant to office jobs. '
I practically ruined my own ego, my pride.
You guys have no idea how sarcastic that interviewer was.
And today, my mom told me that i screw-ed that UOB job.
I was so disappointed... No. In fact, i was devastated.
I blamed myself for not studying hard enough.
I blamed myself for pinning up false hopes.
Just let me do what i want, stop your plans for me.
I don't need that.
It's enough.

2011-01-14T22:51:00.002+08:00

I just feel so uneasy whenever i sees her photos in your fb.
Can i be selfish and ask you to delete them for my sake?
Can i do that?
Forget it, anyway...
Went for a haircut with Sylvia today.
And head-ed home at ard 5pm.
Both of us were feeling so lethargic. Cos we turn-ed in late last night.
She slept at 2am whereas for me... I slept at 3 plus.
I just can't get myself to sleep.
Things are running through my mind, flashbacks.
And i realised that i still couldn't bring myself to voice out any unhappiness.
It became a habit, bad one.
Hate myself this way.
So not me.
And boy... Please stop telling me that you don't deserve me.
I dreaded that sentence ttm.
I don't care for who you are, cos i love you for you.

2011-01-14T01:54:00.002+08:00

I've moved on after that 10 months of pain i've suffered.
iloveyou.
And i clearly know how i feel towards you
Hold my hand till the very end will you ?(:
Sylvia, Please stay strong.
You've been through that, tell yourself... This obstacle is nothing to you.
I'm here for you, if you needs me too.
Even though i can't give you good advices but i can be a good listening ear.
Remember, slacking clan is always there for you.
That friendship ties, that bond is strong enough to keep you moving.
STAY STRONG BABE!

2011-01-13T18:36:00.001+08:00

Bought 2 baby turtles today
Cost me 10 bucks.
A tank - 14bucks.
And their food.
Hehe... Cny new turtles, HUAT AH!

2011-01-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

Happy day :D

2011-01-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

我以為我的溫柔
能給妳整個宇宙 ~
我以為我夠堅強
卻一天天的失望
少給我一點希望
希望就不是奢望

I'm so into this song...
Because pple always make assumptions and jump into conclusions.
If you had given less hope, then hope wouldn't be so excessive.
Am i right to say that? (:
Humans often think or hope that miracle would happen.
You thought that you're able to fill the emptiness in your relationship.
Focusing on being by 'his'side.
He made you cry,
But you still forgive him with a smile.
You thought you're strong enough to handle everything by yourself.
But you lost so much with despair.
You said you would understand my disappointment.
But that couldn't be relieved with just tolerance.
Cos again, i thought i showed up at a perfect time.
My assumption is just that i assumed.

That paragraph, its for you.

2011-01-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

10.36pm.
A stay home Monday (:
Actually i just realised something...
When I was young, i'm indulged with the musical box's melodies.
It's so soothing and melodious, like a lullaby (:
The first musical box i had was from my 2nd Uncle, and it's from melbourne.
It's white in colour, with a fairy.
Back then... I was so in love with the melody.
I played it almost every night before I sleep :D
Oh well... Naive (:

2011-01-01T01:27:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2011 AND A HAPPPPPY NEW YEAR~
Wooo~Had a blast with the peeps just now :D
Headed over to Xiao Qiu's place after my work.
Jasmine's already at her house :x
My bad uh, didn't tag along for grocery.
Anw, WE HAD FRIED STUFFS!
Like, Japanese crispy chicken, nuggets, samosa, fries and lastly, seaweed chicken.
Damn full ttm lah.
Like all fried foods... TIME FOR A DIET PLAN~
Waited for Jy, Zy and Alex to come.
Went down Xiao qiu's block and enjoyed pretty much :D
Spray here and there, playing fireworks.
HUAT AH~
Oh well... Time passed so quickly.
2010 was indeed a bad year for me.
BUT,
2011 WILL BE MUCH MUCH MUCH MUUUUUUUCH~ BETTER! :D
Lastly, may our friendship last till the end.
ILOVEYOU PEEPS <3
Okay, am skype-ing with Xiao qiu now.
Toodles~

2010-12-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

Boo!
UOB called me for a 2nd interview meetup for next tuesday.
Damn effing happy :D
Finally i got myself a stable job, a stable income.
Whereby i'm on my own, standing on my own (:
Probably there will be a drastic change for 2011.
My new life, a start of a new beginning.
Had a long chat with Jasmine aka tomimi these days.
And i realised how important a friendship is <3
Not forgetting, kinship <3
I've fab friends who will always be there for me.
Fab relatives who will give me advices, standing by me.
Charlyn jie jie, thank you... For you're always there for me when i need you the most for all these years.
Giving me advices, leading me, guiding me.
I learnt alot (:
Jasmine sister, thank you for being my listening ear, there for me when im at the lowest peak of my life.
Sylvia aka xiao qiu~ thank you for being there for me as well.
And alot more.
I'm touched. Seriously I am.
I realised how fortunate i am compared to the others.
I ought to be contented.
Throughout these 20 years of my life, i finally know what's important.
Awesome friends and kinship (:

2010-12-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

JIE TUO~
Anw, Christmas was rather boring. Nothing interest me.
On the eve, Accompanied Sylvia for her interview then headed home.
The peeps then came at ard 10 plus, countdown for Christmas and left.
On Christmas, spent my day with my relatives.
Gifts exchange and stuffs.
Actually i must face up one fact that i couldn't deny.
I kinda envy couples that managed to celebrate Xmas together.
Its like they been through ups and downs and finally they can enjoy this precious moment together.
It's a blessing actually (:

2010-12-24T18:23:00.002+08:00

It's christmas eve (:
Went out with Sylvia and Ah hock ysd.
Slack-ed at Mac and met Jennifer.
Head-ed to Tampines 200+ for Tzi Char.
Zhongyi came shortly.
Bus-ed to Town park for a drink.
Play-ed pokers, total madness.
Xiao zhu then came.
DAMN U ! I'LL RMB U FOR LIFE MAN. LOL.
He slapped my hand, DAMN PAIN LA ( Now, its like blue black cum swollen alrdy)
We played circle of death.
Dar-ed Xiao zhu to kissed Zy's hand for 10 seconds.
Then in the end me and Sylvia kena also.
We have to kiss (lips to lips) for 5-10 secs.
Craze man. Enjoy-ed so much :D
SLACKING CLAN! <3

2010-12-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

I'm wondering...
There's pros and cons when you're in a relationship.
Its like, If he didn't text you, you think alot.
If you guys quarrel, you no mood. Then cannot sleep.
Then quarrel, not your fault you also needa compromise.
You lost your ego.
When you're so in love with him, you can do anything just for him.
But you'll lose yourself, you are no longer who you used to be.
You LIVE for your bf, your world only consist him, nothing else.
Ain't it exhausting?
Well... That's my perspective luh.
Just think that, why must relationship be in this state?

2010-12-20T23:32:00.003+08:00

Im glad that i've awesome friends by my side (:
They never fail to be there by my side always.
That's a gift.
I'm not lonely at all, i've you guys by my side... Its enough.
What's more can I ask for ? :D
At least i know... I'm not alone.
I LOVE YOU PEEPS~

2010-12-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

I was watching channel U.
A show acted by Felicia Chin. Awesome show.
Nostalgic.
Just then... You're online.
You asked me how am i doing.
I told myself, it's just a casual remark.
Please, don't step in my life when i'm feeling so fragile.

2010-12-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

FINALLY~
A meet up with the SLACKING CLAN on this coming Friday <3
Like after a week we finally have the chance to meet up :D
Miss them much.
Today...
I practically spent my whole day watching online movies and clear my room.
Felt great.
And i realised that Jesse Mccartney is kinda hawt :3
Those eyes of his ... -melts-
Okay, this is kinda out of randomness :x
ANYWAY~
Will be watching a movie with LIU WEI DE on this coming Saturday.
Harry potter !
Life kinda bores me without school :/
I miss MA DUA ER, MA DUA HAM AND MA DUA CAI ):
We shall meet up soon, miss you guys many many ): ): ):
Xmas is around the corner.
Nothing really interest me now.
But well, HOPE THE NEW YEAR WILL BE BETTER.

2010-12-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

Job interview on this coming Thurs.
UOB Bank.
Well... Should I feel happy ?
Like it's near my place and stuffs...
But well... Hope i'll be able to make it through (:
Was slacking with Jack earlier.
That dood is enlisting tml.
ALL THE BEST BRO~
Oh?
And FYI to that douche.
If you thinks that I'm sucha bitch to you then be it ?
Just because I DITCHED you means that i'mma bitch ? Joke (:
You should be pleased that I didn't do anything behind your back.
But thinking back, maybe i should have :D
Since your so flithy rich, I SHOULD HAVE SCAM YOUR MONEY AND LEAVE YOU LYING ON SOME DESERTED AISLE.
And then ask some BANGALA TO BANG YOUR FACE.
RIGHT ON YOUR FACE, FLAT.
And then you said ' Karma will haunt me, double, you <3 GUAN YIN MA '
Hey scumbag, I'M GUAN YIN MA'S GOD DAUGHTER.
And... I know what i'm doing.
Clear CONSCIENCE.
How about you?
You should know what you've done.
So stop acting like you're so righteous... That I-did-nothing-wrong face.
Jesus Christi, You should feel guilty (:
Last but not least, GET A LIFE YOU ARSEHOLE.
Enough of ranting ^^

2010-12-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED TOMIMI, JASMINE! (6th Dec)

Went to celebrate Jasmine's Birthday (:
Bus-ed to Marina Square and had Cafe Cartel for brunch.
The food was Average i guess.
Walk walk for awhile then went White Sands to meet Xiao Qiu~
Xiao Zhu came after this school.
At the meantime we were crapping and laughing outside Mac.
Saw Kenneth Chong and Michelle.
Like ex lysians gathering :D
Xiao Zhu arrived then we walked to Downtown.
CRAPS.
Again, his torturing session.
We're so used to it :x
Din-ed at Streets Cafe and took pictures.
Asked Jasmine to use her mouth to take away the candle and the 'Happy Birthday' thingy.
It was so fun.
Oh well...
Dear Jasmine, hope you enjoyed your belated celebration with us <3
Enough of enjoyment already...
Tml onwards, the SLACKING CLAN will be busy...
Back to the normal life we're leading.
But we shall meet up soon, our slacking session ^^
These days felt so unreal, so fun... SO FAB.
Having great friends along your side... It's so wonderful.
I LOVE YOU GUYS <3<3<3

Time to charge.

2010-12-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

Back home (:
Was out with Xiao Qiu and Xiao Zhu :D
Thanks loads for accompanying me peeps.
Xiao Zhu sent me home again... AND IT'S A TOTAL TORTURE.
HE SLAPPED MY HAND THRICE !
Dammit -.-
I tell you... HE'LL PAY FOR IT !
I'll give him HELL. Bwahaha, mark my words ^^
Ysd, i had a shock of my life man.
It's like suddenly...
Like really out of the sudden, Xh contacted me.
He fb-ed me for my contact.
And then we starting texting.
And today when i was packing my study table (Cos i'm changing to a new one)
I saw a Xmas card that i wanted to post to him.
Like 4 or 5 years ago?
So eff-ing long ago lah.
But i didn't post to him cos we break alrdy. LOL.
But anw... I saw tons of letters that me and Jasmine used to write during sec days.
Like so funny lah...
I was laughing like a G6.
And then i saw a POEM that i wrote specially for Xiao Qiu and Xiao Zhu.
I don't know why on earth will I think that they are made for each others :x
It's the Qi Li Xiang song by Jay chou.
I edited something like :
' Chi qing jie hao~ Mei tian he Shu Fang zou zai yi qi ~ '
LAWLS.
I told them just now and Xiao Zhu just slapped my hand -..-
But what the eff?! I COMPOSED THIS SONG FOR YOU BOTH LEY.
Good old times :D

2010-12-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

Had an enjoyable day with the Peeps today :D
Dinner at Bbq Chicken with Bunny Tan and Xiao Qiu~
Was laughing non stop, like a SIAO CHA BOR.
But i like ^^
Nom Nom Nom till 7 plus and went down to Slack outside BK.
Xiao Zhu was taking his OWN SWEET TIME coming -.-
He arrived at 8 Plus.
By the time he sat down, we wanna leave alrdy :D
There he go, Whining and whining :x
Headed to Fair price cos Bunny Tan wanna buy Fishball crackers for my mum.
So sweet of her i know.
And then we walked home.
Xiao zhu sent us home BUT it was a total torture ):
He threatened to slap our hand...
All the way from ehub to my house.
Laughing non stop again. LAUGH LAUGH AND LAUUUUGH~
I'll miss the SLACKING CLAN ):
We shall meet up soon again alrights ?
LEPAK is loved <3
Anw, School ended... Time for job hunting !

2010-11-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

It rain-ed so much recently.
Kinda brings my mood down, so much.
It gave me a nostalgic feeling.
Kept me pondering... What am i supposed to do?
To wait or to let it go.
Nothing to lose.
Nothing i can say to you, nothing i can voice out.
I suffered in silence.
Knowing what you're doing yet i can't seemed to expose you.
Why?
I've no rights to.
Nothing left to fear.

2010-11-22T23:52:00.004+08:00

Was damn tired today...
Yesterday ard 12am.
Kiat came by and placed a Birthday Cake outside my house.
I was touched (:
Thanks for the surprise.
We chatted all the way till like almost 3 plus in the morning.
Then I woke up at 6am for school.
SO SHAGGED.
Hamham bought me a Icing Birthday cake.
So sweet of her <3
Slept for like an hour in class then met Jasmine after my school.
Train-ed to Bugis and had dinner with her.
She bought me a HUGE pooh, and a BIRTHDAY balloon as expected :x
Anw, had a great time with you sister <3
Thanks peeps! Though I'm spending my FIRST single birthday but i enjoyed pretty much.
Thanks JASMINE SISTER.
Thanks MA DUA ER.
Thanks MA DUA HAM.
Thanks MA DUA CAI.
Thanks SYLVIA.
Thanks LEONG.
Thanks KIAT.
Thanks FATTY.
Thanks ZHONGYI.
Thanks SEAN.
Thanks ALEX.
Thanks CLEMEN.
Thanks CHARLYN JIE.
Thanks DION KOR.
Thanks SHUMIN.
And alot more (:
My awesome 20th, I enjoyed.
Awesome friends and relatives :D

2010-11-21T21:54:00.002+08:00

Had an AWESOME BIRTHDAY BLAST with the peeps ysd :D
It was FAB.
But i was like dead drunk luh -..-
I won't deny the fact that i'mma lousy drinker.
I can't take much liquor.
I practically went berserk when i'm drunk.
All thanks to Jennifer luh!
For tagging me in fb, my drunk state video.
It's so UNGLAM ttm.
Like OMO -..-
Tml is MY DAY.
I like <3

2010-11-15T18:20:00.002+08:00

Can you just tell me what you want?
You wanna love BOTH at the same time?
I'm important in your life?
Guys told me that, each and EVERY ex told me that.
Bullshyts.
You'd rather choose her than me?
Then what are you doing right now?
You are practically dragging.
Or should i say you wanna have both?
I'm just another substitute.
I totally feel like an arsehole, a bitch, a fcuking 3rd party.
You won't know how it feels like to be sandwiched.
Like you so what?Love you so what?
At the end of the day, i'm just another passerby in your life.
Why are you denying?
The fact is, you LOVE your gf.
Why give me craps like you can't live without me or you love me more than her.
What's with the promises you made?
If you really love me then PROVE IT.
Don't give me empty promises.
Liked i've told you, if you still love your gf or you wanna salvage the relationship between you and her, I WILL JOLLY WELL LEAVE.
What's so difficult to make a decision?
Don't come and sweet talk me and to think that i'll be smittened or bewitched by that?
Look, what i wanna know now is YOUR DECISION.
Not the guys specialty, sweet talks.

2010-11-12T12:34:00.002+08:00

We had a long chat last night.
He asked me if I like him.
I hesitated and changed to a new topic.
Out of the blue... He interrupted me and asked why did i change the topic.
He knows I like him.
I told him, So what I like you or not?
It wouldn't change anything, You BELONGS to someone else's.
Not mine.
He replied ' I'm attached, not married.'
So you expect me to do something about it?
Like snatch you away from your girl?
I'm not doing that.
Cos i know what i'm doing now, is wrong.
I can totally understand how your girl will feel if she knows.
That is why I'm not gonna ruin the relationship between the both of you.
I choose not to.
Yes, you told me that you care for me more than your girl.
You told me that if me and your girl sent you a text at the same time, you would read mine first.
So? You still don't know what you're thinking.
Even if one day you chose me instead of your girl...
Will you do the same thing to me like how you did to her?
Think.

2010-11-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

Vex-ed.
I won't deny the fact that i do feel something for him.
But i don't wish to do anything about it.
It would be wrong, so wrong...
I don't wanna be like those bitches ruining people's relationship.
The fact is... he's attached.
And today he asked me ' What if one day i fall for you... How would you react?'
What do you expect from my answer?
I paused.
I replied ' I don't wanna be a third party, i don't wanna be the cause.'
He answered ' Love cannot be forced, if i fall for you... There'll be a way.'
I'll restraint myself from falling.
I will control my feelings.
I do not have a choice.
Indeed, She is fortunate to have him (:

2010-11-09T23:00:00.002+08:00

I still can't sleep -..-
2 more weeks to my birthday ?
Ain't looking forward.
Only towards drinking session (:
Nothing in particular.
Was chatting with Leong.
My part time bf :x
PART TIME~
Anw... He made me understand some facts.
He cleared my doubts.
The pros and cons (:
Been thinking... I'm so tired of working...
Can i have a week rest? Like don't need to work.
Then nua at home or slack with friends. My slacking clan.
Will be meeting Clemen and Shenrui on this Fri for dinner.
Meeting Jas on sat, SHOPPING <3
So tired of everything... Dang.

2010-11-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

Ryan was like saying ' The nehneh fcuking strong ' - The magnet fcuking strong.
BWAHAHA~

2010-11-01T23:09:00.001+08:00

For what i know...
I don't need a Bf.

2010-10-31T21:36:00.002+08:00

You passed away... Just like that.
I saw the blood stains along Wild wild wet till Sakura's yesterday.
It's Halloween night.
I wondered, whose? Police were gathering, investigating.
I was shocked when i knew it was you.
I breakdown...
You're my one and only Gan di that i had.
Whenever you need a listening ear... ' Jie, i wanna talk to you '
Whenever you need advices in life ... ' Jie, tell me what to do '
Whenever you need hints on woo-ing a girl ' Jie, how to woo her? '
You'll always call me in the middle of the night or out of randomness.
Just to sing the song ' Chun zai', as always.. Out of tune.
Then you'll ask me to sing along with you... And whin-ed.
We used to slack so much, used to watch you playing Baskteball.
We jok-ed, we laugh-ed.
Now you're leaving me alone... Crying.
You're miss-ed.
I hope that you are doing well up there.
R.I.P Darren.

Ps:/ To those pple who stand there and watch yet doing nothing. Fuck you.

2010-10-29T21:13:00.002+08:00

Today is totally eff-ed up.
There's no delivery man today so i had to deliver it by myself.
I asked my Asst manager if there's any delivery man on shift.
He just shake his head.
I asked again if other delivery man can do the job? He shake his head.
Seriously, you mute or what? Dumb?
You fcuking pay the cab fare just to deliver the food. You earn what?
All the way from ehub to Changi then from Changi to Tampines then back to my workplace.
Ccb. Waste my time nia.
So inflexible... Kum gong.
Wanted to go out so badly after my work.
But no one is free.
Friends not free.
Bf not free...
Got Bf machiam no bf liddat.
Seriously if you've no time for ur gf, for what you want to have a gf?
Cos you see others couple couple then you despo for it? Or what?
You got busy till this extent meh? Busy till now also havent text me?
Forget it, Just dont waste my time.
Kan pua drag.

2010-10-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

愛情裡面總有一個比較傻
要怪就怪我放不下

Now that i'm free to blog (:
Going over to Shenrui's chalet on this coming Sat.
CHANGI one...
Iwanna watch Paranormal activity 2 ):
My month! It's coming :D
Drink till we drop hor buds !
I don't wish to be sober that night.
Then Monday... which is my birthday itself. GOT SCHOOL.
Nice...
Ah lah fcuk it.
Hangovers? be it :D

2010-10-22T17:32:00.002+08:00

Let me cry my heart out...
Just one last time and i promise... I'll forget you complete-ly.

Mun yahng kong ruk maak tao nan
Dtae cheewit mun dtong bpen pan

2010-10-21T23:32:00.001+08:00

That heartache...
It's painful.
Thanks for your concern...
Hope that u're doing well too.

2010-10-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

Even though i'm aware that you're busy working...
Even though i tried to tell myself that i've to understand your situation.
Because i'm busy with my school and work as well.
But it somehow makes me feel that... it ain't getting anywhere.
I told myself, i'll learn to love you.
But do i have the chance to?
No...
So how'do you want me to improve on that?
Our timeslots/schedule never falls on the same offday.
It doesn't feel like we just got together.
It feels like we're together for a couple of months already.
Cos, i don't feel any 'oh, we're so sweet' feeling.
Tired of this feeling.

2010-10-19T17:59:00.002+08:00

28.apr.2010

My reason:

有些事不是不想告诉你，是因为不想让你伤心或难过。所以我领原自己藏在心里没告诉你。

2010-10-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

School ended at 12pm.
Head-ed off to White Sands and met Sylvia.
Went to Ehub to Sing k (:
Enjoyed myself ^^
Then headed home at around 6pm.
Had dinner and went off to meet Adelyn.
Slacking session (:
Pandy just came back from msia...
He wanted to meet me and pass me the gifts he bought for me.
But i had plans with Ade...
Sorry ><
You told me to be more open up with you...
But are you doing the same now ?
You seemed to be keeping everything to yourself.
But well... I don't wish to prompt much either.
Cos it might be some personal matter... I mean, your privacy.
I'll be there if you need a listening ear (:

2010-10-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

Pandy went to KL already ):
He'll be back on a Monday night.
Pandy says that he'll DRAG me along for the next holiday :D
Please take good care of yourself (:
ELSE YOUR EYEBAGS WILL GET WORSE~
Going United Square tml with Charlyn Jie, Dion Kor and Bunny Tan (:
MAKE CANDIES ~
It's like Sticky Candy that kind :3
SWEET TOOTH~
AND YAYEEE~ School ends at 12pm on Monday ^^
LADIES~ Wanna catch a movie after school ? :D
Oh yeah! And updates for today.
Slack-ed with Sylvia and Nicholas aka Fei Yu Qing.
Damn long never catch up with Nic already.
He look the same except the fact that he gotten taller and slimmer.
Like a model sia.
Seriously he has a figure of a model.
That's definitely a compliment.
I miss Pandy already ):

2010-10-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

It's graduation day tml (:
And it's Pandy's offday tml, he thought of meeting me.
But sorry boy... After graduation i'm going out with my classmates.
We still have plenty of time to spend together next time.
Fret not :D
In a relationship... You should learn how to balance things out.
Don't get too carried away.
Cos at the end of the day... It's the friends that are always there by your side (:
Cherish the friends you have right now and live without regrets.

2010-10-11T22:21:00.001+08:00

He asked me to be his gf yesterday.
10/10/10
I was surprised... I didn't know what to answer.
But i'm willing to give it a try.
I hope that he'll be different.
I agreed.
Give me time and i'll learn to love you <3

2010-10-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

I don't love you anymore.
I don't miss you anymore.
Goodbye (:

2010-10-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

Aloha~
Today is the last day of my Holiday ):
But well... It's school day tml !
Can't wait to see my friends ^^
Megan Fox, Hamham and Dua eh <3
Oct 13th, our graduation. Time flies ~
Went out with Jasmine yesterday.
OUR SHOPPING SPREE~!
Bought a top and a bag.
Contented :D
Headed to Jurong Point with Jasmine and met Simon for dinner.
Din-ed at Swensens.
I had Aglio Olio pasta.
I tell you... For the past 19+ years... This Aglio Olio made me sweat.
LAUGHS~ It's effing spicy!!!
Anyway, Thanks Simon aka Pandy Ng for the Swensens treat (:
Oct 30th.... HALLOWEEN <3
We're so gonna go Night Safari to try our luck again!
Soooooooooooooooooo happy :D

2010-09-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

Shopping on SATURDAY~
So look forward :D

2010-09-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

It feels weird when i saw your car beside mine.
I raised up my hand hoping that you would realised that i'm right beside you.
And finally you turned to my direction and wind down your window.
That surprised yet ' don't know what to say ' look.
You looked so vexed that it brought up my curiousity.
But i think i know the reason behind that expression.
See-ing you always remind me of the days when we're together.
Those naive days we had...
Nevertheless whenever we have the chance to meet up.
You would always ALWAYS AAAALWAYS remind me of how badly i used to treat you.
And then you will go around whining and make me feel so guilty.
Frankly speaking, those days were wonderful.
In case you're reading my blog.
I would want to let you know that...
You cannot have both, you can only stay devoted to one.
And that's what i learnt.

2010-09-23T21:02:00.004+08:00

Seriously, do you even have the rights to flare at me?
And who are you to flare at me?
Whether am i clubbing on the oct or not, does it even concern you?
So worked up for what?
You're not yet my bf.
So why are you making a big fuss about it?
Isit a crime to club with friends?
You also always drink with your friends what.
Don't tell me about your theory or your stand.
Don't tell me about how you feel.
Honestly man... Only i can flare, you've no rights to.
Say me demanding but whatever.
I dont care.
I dont give a damn.
I dont live for anyone.
I live for myself.
Get the facts right will you?
Don't push the limits.

2010-09-20T21:01:00.003+08:00

Out of randomness i've come up a birthday scheme for myself :x

Hair extensions AGAIN
Long tube dress (Ankle length)
Grey contacts from Maxi eye

Muahaha~ My birthday resolution !
Wanted to have curls instead of extensions..
But having a look at the rate of my hair growing... Like not long yet not short -.-
Plus with hair extentions right... Whatever you wear or camwhore. Is SUI one lor.
Why not a combo ?
Having a handzome dood Bf on my birthday! :D
Okay la... Maybe by then i already got myself a Bf ?
Unpredictable, Hor ? (:
If that's the case... Then it'll be almost a perfect.

2010-09-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

Do you hate me ?
You walked past me...
And we were like total strangers..
Yet i'm still holding on to the pain.
Everything happened so unexpectedly.
For these 4 months plus i've been avoiding places that you'll going.
But today... You just simply walked past me..
I hold on to my pulse.
Asking myself if that was just an illusion.
But it wasn't.

2010-09-16T20:36:00.003+08:00

I think i laugh-ed alot today :D
Was crazing around with friends in the morning and noon.
Disturbing our lecturer.
He said something like " If i wanna deal with her(marketing terms), i'll squeeze something out of her."
SOUNDED DAMN WRONG RIGHT ?!
And the best part, he was pointing at me.
Then Jennifer burst out her laughters.
Then the rest started laughing.
We couldn't hold our laughters any longer deh.
Ryan called me just now.
Chit chatting away then he saw his friend.
He said hi to his friend and claimed that he walked the right direction.
Then suddenly he said " Byee~ " and i assumed that he was talking to me.
I bye back and kup his phone.
He called me again and gan. LOL
I think that i'mma laughing machine today :D
AND I LIKE IT ~

2010-09-15T10:36:00.000+08:00

对不起我却没捉紧你...

多的是你不知道的事.

2010-09-14T18:18:00.002+08:00

BOOHOO~
YOU KNOW WHAT ?!
I'm not supposed to be working today yet i chiong to work !
So depressing luh -.-
Luckily my manager slot me in.
Yuwei wanted to meet me yesterday for dinner, but i wasn't free.
I STILL TELL HIM TO FIND ME ON TUES.
As i assumed that i'll be working.
Joke man.
Yuwei came to look for me at around 2.30. Cos my work ends at 3.
Chat chat then he ride me home.
I effing like his bike, really is cool.
That fella also enlisting on this coming Thurs.
Another botak !
In case you're reading my blog.
I need to emphasize again... SI BOTAK ! :x
Alright... Off for dinner :D