Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Last blogged at 4:07 PM

I hate to be accused .
I hate it , to the maximum .
My mum doesn't trust me .. As always .
I lied to her once , but that was ages ago . And she condemned me .
Making everything sounded convincing to herself and thinks that it's all my fault .
But why am i always ALWAYS ALWAYS OBEYING HER ?
Study study study , I HATE STUDYING FOR GODSAKE !
Just solely from that particular matter , she can link it to my studies .
And a fit of anger i howled back " Then don't study , I don't like to study ! "
One fact , i never like studying .
What's about that Retail course then ?
Yes , for her sake .
That hotel management course ? For her sake .
Driving license ? For her sake .
Home early ? For her sake .
Pleasing her to be happy ? For her sake .
What about me ? Has she ever think about what i want ?
It's MY FUTURE , shouldn't i be the one deciding ?
I know it's for my own good , but look ... I'm not happy at all .
Been stressing up lately , she don't even realised .
She thinks that everything it's too simple for me to handle .
Sometimes ... I detest this family .
Sometimes ... I wished that i wasn't the only child in this family .
Sometimes ... I'd rather be better off a orphan .
God , why not you take my life ?
Im not even living anyway , am i even breathing ?
They give me a life that makes them have the rights to control my life ?
Kill me . I hate this family .

Monday, December 21, 2009
Last blogged at 10:28 PM

Loha peepos ~
I'mma munching Famous Amos and blogging (:
SORRRREH , for not being able to blog for days ?
Ya . days only :x
Piled up with my work .
And thanks Baby for accompanying me in the morning(s) .
You know , i've been working morning shifts .
Sweet him , he send me off to work (:
And made me breakfast(s) , i like ...
And today , he fetched me off work :D
Updates bout yesterday ...
Right after work , i went home , changed and headed out to meet Jasmine for X'mas shopping .
Seriously , it was damn frigging heavy to the maximum .
We almost died , but still ... we can managed (:
After the X'mas shopping , cabbed to Ehub! and have our dinner at Bbq Chicken .
Nice yet full .
And then we walked home .
Today !!!
Worked in the morning ..
And Baby fetched me after my work and walked me home .
Around 4.30pm he accompanied me to bus all the way to Toa Payoh .
Well , it's a preview at HDB Hub for my advanced Retail Supervisory thingy .
Basically it's a course . A retail course to be specific .
I ain't sure if i'll be taking the course :/
ANYWAY ! I saw Faiz there (:
It's nice to see someone you know ... Sweet feeling lah .
The talk ended at 7.30pm .
Me and Baby went walking around , and he saw that Ultra big Fishball .
That practically drove him crazy i guess ?
He was damn excited i tell you .
His face , it's priceless :x
F.Y.I , he is a fishball maniac (:
Well well well , i'm lazy to upload the photos :/
It will be soon , i PROMISE ! ^-^

Thursday, December 17, 2009
Last blogged at 5:02 PM

Lethargic .
Can i don't work ?
Can i party somewhere ?
Can i get'ta hell out of here ?
Can i club , pub and get drunk somewhere ?
Hate my life to be in such a state .
Lifeless ...
Man , can i like club more often during the saturdays ?
Fcuktard .
I'll blog more after i finished my work .

Monday, December 14, 2009
Last blogged at 10:41 PM

Went over to Recruit express this afternoon .
They intro-ed a Corporate Sales Officer over at Robinsons .
And the interview it's like tml .
Which is like so last minute .
And then the agent was like asking me about my perspective towards Admin job ...
I replied " Sit in front of the desk doing paperworks and photocopies "
She exclaimed " Not that boring lah , it's much better "
Like duh ? She's the office girl what . That's why she said that -.-
As my parents wish , it's a Admin job .
Imagine me sitting in front of that damn computer front doing excel ?
I live for myself or for my parents ? I don't know leh .
Really leh , doing something that i don't like , i won't say that i detest lah .
So uninteresting .
Why not she intro me some fascinating jobs like working in a Zoo or a birdpark .
At least i can experience it and might like it ?
She did ask me what am i interested in . But i told her designing .
Which is entirely impossible . Because im unexperienced and i do not have any qualifications for that .
Like , i don't graduate from a Art government school or taken any courses regarding arts .
Except for that Secondary Art " experience "
So i ditched that thinking of being able to work in a creative/designing company .
The only advantage of working as a Admin is that ... I don't have to work during the weekends .
Weekdays , i'll start work as early as 9.00am and end work at 5 or 6 pm .
My mother in the otherhand is giving me that thinking like " You'd better pass that interview ."
My thinking " Take it easy , it might be a good thing if i don't get the job . "
I'm not lazy ... I don't know how to describe . Aiyah , very contradicting one lah .
You peepos won't understand ):

Last blogged at 10:23 AM

I miss her i miss her i miss her ; Badly .
I know it's rather silly to blog this out .
I don't know :/
How i wish i can just send her a text saying " I'm sorry "
Jacqueline Jacqueline Jacqueline ... Quit being emo .
I hate myself .

Sunday, December 13, 2009
Last blogged at 9:19 PM

Felt uber moooooody today ~
Menses is killing me , stomach cramp is killing me , my legs are killing me .
So i seemed to get frustrated easily today .
My Sunday blues ? -.-
Had a long day today .
Headed over to Amk for breakfast .
Then to Ikea to shop for carpets and my dressing table .
Then somewhere around Beach road a particular furniture mall and bought a sofa .
After the furniture shopping we headed to Ion .
They practically killed my legs for walking that much ):
Dinner , we had steamboat .
And the HEAT IT'S KILLING ME !
So , i turned out to be moody -.-
Like really sian lah , especially at Ion .
The items ( branded stuffs ) really is expensive to the maximum luh .
I cannot buy anything there . More like window shopping .
That's the worse part for a girl lah .
It's not like as if i can afford it .
More or less it's all the working adults who can afford .
I think i can only afford Longchamp :/ How pathetic .
So i went in to the washroom umpteen times .
Just to clear my bowels ? Hahaha ~ Sounded so disgusting .
But no , you know when you're having menses .. It's damn annoying .
Girls will understand . I shall not specify much (:
Stupid menses . Why must girls have menses ? Why not boys ?
Boy are like so slack , literally .
Other then , them enlisting to the national service thingy ...
And their future crop up with supporting family and stuffs .
Girls in the otherhand must get pregnant ...
And give birth , i heard from the elders that it's a rather hard process :o
Well , that's life .
Don't whine Jacqueline . You still has a long way to go .
Not yet a 20 , why think so much ? -.-

Saturday, December 12, 2009
Last blogged at 11:25 PM

Time to blog ...
Met Baby at 1 plus and took bus 81 to Kovan .
Didn't get to shop alot there .. Thus we train-ed to Farrer park and went to CitySquare Mall .
Baby bought couple rings for us .
I'll cherish it (:
Enjoyed my day with Baby ...
Actually there's many many more to blog about .
But i don't know why i feel so jelly while typing .
Meanwhile i wanna blog out how i feel at this very day .
Sorry for being random but .. i shall continue typing .
I went on to buy Pine Nuts for Daddy .
And Baby was saying " Parrots eat one "
Then that Auntie is laughing lor -.-
How naive can Baby be sia . I wonder :/ HAHA .
After walking around at Citysquare we walked to somewhere near Little India and took bus 65 .
Initially we thought that there's a Bus 21 but unfortunately , no ):
Alot of ah neh(s) in bus 65 .
So we reached Tampines changed bus and headed to Pasir ris .
Met Jasmine and Baby accompanied us to walk over to Ehub .
Had dinner at Bbq Chicken . It was a lil packed there .
And my heels hurts alot luh ):
Pictures are in Jasmine's phone .
Probably will get it from her asap .
A bit lethargic ... Maybe because of my menses .
This month i don't eat alot .
It's always like the alternate months one .
Like this month eat a little , next month eat alot and so on ~
Annoying sia :/
Okay lah , that's all for today .
I think i'm turning in soon also . A bit moodless to stay on for tonight .
Nights out peepos ~